Sometimes things are going so shitty for so long that when all the pieces finally fall into place it feels almost unreal. I’ve become so comfortable with this change its almost like a change never even happened. I’m not sure how to explain myself. I’ve had those words said to me before in many different contexts. From friends, family, people after they laughed at something funny i did, but they all meant something different. This time there was so much intense emotional backing to something that was said so simply. I was expecting him to say it soon.(A result of almost accidental drunk confession) But for some reason, the nervousness in my stomach felt like i was being caught off gaurd. I replied without a seconds hesitation. I’ve obviously felt it for a while but once everything was said and done it was like it all became real. My whole life its always been too good to be true, but this isnt. It’s real. My stomach sank and my heart pounded, which isnt an unfamiliar feeling. But this time it was different, it wasnt that sick to my stomach routine. This time, with my heart laid out infront of someone, it was knowing how vulnerable we both were in that moment and the instant comfort when we realized after the huge risk we ended in the safety of one anothers hands. And it feels right. So since i know that usually when people ask they’re referring to my love life, my answer to you is “Yeah, everything is going good.”
